Greetings Everyone!

Well life has certainly kept things interesting and not always in a good way, but I'm making it through as best I can. This month marks my first year living in Kentucky (Region One) and I have to say I'm still adjusting.

The thing you have to remember about this place is that, for the most part, its utterly boring. There's not really alot of things to do out here and rarely does anything stay open late enough so that when I get out of work, I have somewhere to hang out. I have yet to find a good hang out spot down here (what I wouldn't give to have the Omega Diner transported here part and parcel) and though there are plenty of restaurants and bars, if I don't care to drink or eat, then nill is available else to do.

Of course, this, as Stephen Hawking's mother once said, "..Focuses the mind wonderfully."


Therapy

In order to get things in line and get on a hormone regimen other than just straight estrogen, I've got to get a letter from a therapist basically saying that I'm sane and serious about transition. So far I've been to two sessions and to coin a popular esoteric phrase, Pandora's Box has been opened. Course, at the moment I feel like the box is a pain amplifier and I've a sneaky suspicion that there's a gom jabar hidden away somewhere.

Therapy is one of those things, that's deeply personal and cuts right to the quick, if one opens themselves to it all the way. I find myself extremely vulnerable, letting all my insecurities (yes, I have them too) out to a complete stranger. Its a dangerous process as therapy could unearth demons one doesn't realize exist. But it can also help one put them to rest... so I've been told.

And that's where I'm at now ---unearthing demons of insecurity and self-doubt. This of course, is bleeding over into all aspects of my life and in turn I'm really hurt at being overlooked for a joint spa treatment at work with a friend of mine at work, and there's all sorts of reasons behind that on my end. Does she know that I'm hurt? Not bloody likely. Should I be giving the cold shoulder? maybe... Right now, I'm just licking my wounds. Its something I plan on bringing to therapy to discuss.


Arts-N-Drafts

Well my drawing bug has started up again. You can see a sample really tiny to the right and before anyone starts complaining that its lewd or inappropriate, let me assure you that a) the featured person is clothed and b) its far tamer than some comics you, me or anyone 13 year old can pickup in a comic shop (Try Jim Hanley's Universe near the Empire State Building in NYC). So really, chill, take a breath and remember, if you don't like it, there's plenty else to see on this site, so go have a look there.

I'm working on faces with detail and matched eyes right now and once I get this down, will move on to hands and feet (these being my three worst areas I need work on). With any luck, once I get this down, then I can set to getting characters (repeatedly drawing a person that looks the same in more than two instances) and then I can set out to do a graphic novel (in black and white and various shades of screentone).

Yeah, meesa got ambition.


Shaping, Toning, Plucking, Tweasing, Surgical Implants...

This morning I broke out my Denise Austin DVD and decided to get back into exercising and let me tell you, I didn't realize how out of shape muscularly I was until this morning. 15 mins and I was weak in the knees and breathing heavy. Which, I s'pose is good in some situations -wink- but not this one when one is on one's own ;)

I'm going to have to start exercising regularly again, its just that simple. Sitting 11 hours a day is not exactly doing wonders for my fitness.

Plucking/Tweasing, yep I did that yesterday.. should colour my hair today too. My roots are definitely way too visible.

And as for Surgical Implants... I watched a special on pacemaker technology on the History Channel this morning... a pacemaker for the BRAIN... very cool concept for the treatment of epilepsy.


Up to Speed

At this point, I think I've covered the majors. I can't believe its been two months since I've updated this side of my page on the Avenger website! Jenkies, thats too long. I'll endeavour to be better about it inbetween setting up the Avenger TV concept with your Cstaff, and going through the site sanity check.

In the meantime, I'm going to be in town ever-so briefly for Kat-N-Steve's matrimony and maybe a bachelor party or two, and NO I will NOT be dancing.... not until I get back in shape anyway ;) But I may serve a few drinks... after all, gotta keep the Avenger Cocktail Waitress title intact you know ;)

Anyway, I gotta run make a call to an Endocrinologist ;)


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